I’m starting to feel the dreadful feelings again, like I have no idea what I’m doing and I’m destined to fail. This is common for me when I get excited about something. This time, it’s feelings about writing a blog.
I’m using a great deal of strength to try to focus on drilling away on a blog. I’ve been reading about what makes a blog successful, and realizing what I’m missing. Instead of falling down and giving up, I’m just going to try to listen to what I’m hearing and take it into account.
My biggest trouble is how to make this blog interesting, unique, new, useful. I have no idea how to be unique, or how to talk about a subject with a new point of view.
I’m forcing myself to think about the fact that I have already looked at some blogs, and mine isn’t necessarily the same as anybody yet.
It’s important for me to remember that I will develop as I continue to work on the site. I’m still quite new to this, and it’s going to take some time to really improve myself.
There’s also the struggle of me not having any real interests or hobbies. I don’t have a lot to write about, I don’t do much because of the depression. I don’t feel like I have anything to share that would be useful. Really the only thing I’m going on is how to cope with mental illness, and I feel there’s already so much information out there on this. I don’t have a cure for depression or any mental illnesses, I just cope with it on a daily basis. I don’t know if the things that have helped me are things everybody already knows.
I’m just very frustrated right now. I know I would like to write a successful blog. I’m pretty sure I would like it to be about mental illness, because it’s the only thing I really have experience with.
The feelings of failure are also being combated by a sense of enjoyment. I’m trying to let myself relax, and enjoy the process of building a blog.
Okay, here it comes, now I’m pissed. Frustrated, stuck. That’s okay though, because I don’t feel like giving up yet.