Though I talk of courage and strength
Tonight I feel weak in my knees
Lamed by stumbling on my journey
I am faced with rationality and dreams
Dueling like gunslingers in the wild west
I know that I could be great
If I didn’t need pills to stabalise
If I wasn’t known for losing patience
If I could control my anger
And think clearly through adversity
But then don’t we all say we could have more
If only it wasn’t for this and that?
Who is brave enough to challenge circumstance?
I like to think I am one of the few
Yet here I lay, caught in anxiety
If I am falling, I must catch myself swiftly
Before I drop too low into yesterday’s depression
Before I give up on myself
Before I have lost all I have fought for
And bring shame back into my life
If it is too hard then I will fail
Is failure really worth losing sleep over?
It is good to review the past with wisdom
And seek a better path for the future
But sometimes it is necessary to dare
So I ask those that I love
Will you stay with me through failure?
Will you encourage me to overcome?
Will you still love me whatever the outcome?
And celebrate with me if I succeed?
There is much thinking to be done
But I must not ponder too long
Because I will lose my bearings
Question my own perseverance
And become listless in my walking