Lord I’m coming undone
Surely I am not at peace
Why has this befallen me?
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Where did my smile go?
The happiness I felt yesterday
Is it gone like the wind?
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Have I overstimulated myself?
I feel like it’s all too much
Perhaps I need to sleep
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But how do I escape this paradox?
I cannot sleep because I am anxious
And I am anxious because I do not sleep
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I need you Lord
Oh god I need you so much
Where have you gone?
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Return to me swiftly
Please I am asking you
To bring your Love to me
Lord suddenly I am
Lost and I feel like
crying out in my
Lack of understanding
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Today was well liked and
Worth living for so why
Do I feel this sudden
Pain in my chest?
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This fear is unquestionably
A reaction to the daunting
Unrecognizable future
That will hold no bounds
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It is not just death that
I fear, it is the surety of
Mistakes and the loss
Of Loved ones I may face
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It could all come crashing
Down in an instant and I
Am so afraid Lord of my
Frailty in this life
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Will I be a man and face
The days to come or will
I back down like the
Coward I once was
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I need to release pent up
Emotions that tug on the
Corners of my heart and
Grip me in my sleep
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So help me Lord to get
The pain out of my body
And let go of the heavy
Burden that I face daily
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I need to cry, I need to
Vent and though I push
And I push the feelings
Will not exit my mind
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I’m all caught up in my
Anxieties and though it is
Early morning I feel the
Weight of the day already
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I have things to accomplish
And mountains to climb so
Please answer me Lord before
I succumb to my depression
You took care of
Me when I fell
Below the earth
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Answered my
Prayers when
God wouldn’t
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And dealt with
My insecurities
With understanding
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You went through
Hell with me
And still forgave
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I do not deserve
Your unconditional
Love and passion
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Without you I
Am the wanderer
Lost in the world
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The foundations
You’ve constructed
Are firm and robust
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Now it is my
Turn to build for
Us an ark
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To sail through
The treacherous
Ocean of Love
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And be a sturdy
Man that you
Can depend on
Put your hand
On my chest
Do you feel
My heart
Beating hard?
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It’s because
Excitement
Overtakes my
Mind and
My body
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And when you
Brush your
Tongue on
My neck
It is rapture
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Our Love
Is sacred
Exhilarating
Electrifying
Intoxicating
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Your anatomy
Pushes my
Throttle hard
I lose myself
Clutching you
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And I Love
To fall asleep
With you resting
Gently between
My arms
Gently I
Smooth out
The sheets
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Set the Blanket
Aside, we won’t
Need it
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I kiss
Between her
Shoulder blades
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Pull off her
Yoga pants
With force
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We always
Start slow
Building tempo
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She likes
My tender
Aggression
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And when
I tease
Her thighs
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We share
All of
Ourselves
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One mind
Thrashing
Thrusting
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Ecstasy
That lasts
For hours
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I am
Consumed
By her
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Our Love
Is raw
Unfailing
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At the end
I grasp
Her firmly
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Pull her
Breasts to
My chest
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And our heartbeats
Become one
Pulsating rhythm
Always new dreams keep the challenge
Satisfaction earned from hardship
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I don’t give a fuck if I’m late
You haven’t seen the mud I swam through
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Yeah judge me all that you need to
I won’t let you drag me under
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I’ll die trying, I’ll suffocate on my success
Bury me thrashing to accomplish something
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I know now that when I fall
I can claw my way back up again
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I’m a strong individual with good intentions
I push boundaries and dare myself daily
It’s time to gamble
Yeah poker face straight
Those aren’t aces
But there’s a King in my hand
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If I play em’ right
Yeah I might bluff you out
Stack my chips up high
Got you spinnin’ on tilt
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It’s not a game Lord
But it feels like one
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The odds are in the devils favor
Yeah He’s got a joker wild
Pulling on a jack
But He’s the fucking joker
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See I got a queen too
Yeah she’s sexy Lord
And Maybe I don’t need to bluff
Not when she’s got my back
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And when the flop comes down
I’ll double raise the bastard
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Diamond on the turn
Yeah it’s all the wrong suit
And He’s grinning at me now
Sweat pours down my neck
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It’s up to you now Lord
Yeah I have to keep betting
I got top pair with Queens
And my King is holding fast
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The river comes and I don’t even look
Cause I’m all in no matter what
What are you afraid of?
Do not be foolish
Are you not still breathing?
Have you not been blessed
With a sturdy heart?
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What mountain has stopped you?
You have climbed many
Would you falter on this foothill?
Keep steadfast and true
Are you not proud of yourself?
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Are you not a better man?
You have proven yourself before
Have you not seen hell?
You know it like your own hand
So how could you become lost again?
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Are you not Loved?
Not all are blessed that way
Can you not trust again?
You are worthy
So what are you afraid of?
The way of the warrior
Is danger and loss
Honor and courage
Heartbreak
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Fight through fatigue
Though you are tired
You must push on
Master your depression
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Accept sacrifice
Protect your mission
Drop your shield
And take up your sword
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The time for war has come
Cowardice will not serve you
Be brave soldier
There are others to save
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Seek not providence
You are already dead
Trust the wary path
It leads you somewhere
Perhaps to your death
But the path is yours
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No other man can walk it for you
It belongs to you alone
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Accept the beauty that is
Regret nothing
Fear everything
But walk with courage
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Guaranteed is your downfall
Not is your rising
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So let the pain wash over you
Cry out if you need to
Pick yourself up from the ground
And dust of your shoulders
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Stillness is not your calling
Do not stay in the light
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Instead gaze into the dark
Brush fingers with danger
Set sight on greatness
And fall wherever you may
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