Letting go of the addiction to numbness
Means accepting emotions long left underneath
Fluttering in and out in swarms
Forgotten hurt floats to the surface
I am reminded today that I feel worthless
A slithering darkness is showing through
Forgive me for my self pity
But I must ask why I was made this way
So sensitive and fragile and loving
Not attuned to the competition of life
I try to define my own masculinity
But any beauty I behold is not seen
What world do I fit into?
Who could look up to me with pride?
I am nothingness, emptiness
A bottle that holds no message
I am tender, I am gentle
I seek love and understanding
Traits not wanted
Traits not desired
I am trampled for seeking Love
I am trampled for sharing Love
And though I complain of pain and sorrows
I cannot change the heart that beats inside
I am the man that I am
I can only hope to influence others
To be the people I need them to be
The people we all need them to be
Because we are all hurting inside
There are not enough men with kind hearts
There is not enough understanding in this life
With confidence in my strength through Love
I may mentor those who are lost along the way
I can foresee a gathering of brothers and sisters
Who are open to their vulnerability
An evolution of minds and spirits
A reforming of our human nature
Perhaps I will lose some things along the way
Perhaps my vision will not be seen
I must carry on with my callings
I must carry on through the hurt
Because I am the man that I am